Friday, August 28, 2020

memory lane || slippery stairs


Let's go back in time, shall we?


April 2012. 

Family had flown out and surprised us from New Hampshire. And so more family drove down from the other side of the state, and life was busy. Family gatherings every night. Sleepovers. Potlucks. As well as "cousin pictures", like the one above. I am the one with her foot on Liberty's shoulder. Why, you ask? Well. Today I am going to tell you that story. 

The story of how I broke my left foot:

With all the boys staying at my house for the night, us girls decided to go stay at my aunt and uncle's for the night. It was me, LaKaysha, Kirsten, and of course Emily since it was her house *winks* we stayed in the boy's room because there were more beds in there. I remember that Colten had a clock on the wall that ticked. And I couldn't sleep. So I started to make up stories in my head.
This may sound weird, but I was always mean to myself in the stories in my head *laughs* I remember that I made up a story about all us cousins playing in the woods behind our house, and somehow I broke my foot. But I just could not figure out which boy cousin would be more likely to carry me back to the house - Tyrel or Colten. (you ponder the weirdest things in the middle of the night *laughs*) I asked Kirsten and Emily in the morning who they thought would be more likely to step up if I was ever to break my foot.
I still think it's weird that I was pondering this that night xP 

It snowed that morning. We decided to run barefoot in the snow, which of course made us squeal and yell. haha xP It's so weird that it snowed in April though! *shrugs* 
We went back to my house where the rest of the family was gathered. Oh the wonderful busi-ness of this time in life (I miss it). 

By that afternoon the sun was shining and it was really beautiful outside. So it was decided that we would roast hotdogs over a fire for supper. 
Like we always did, we begged our Uncle to drive us to the local Trading Post so we could buy some Arizona's because we had a problem *laughs* He agreed, and we were going to get things for the hotdog roast. I was so excited to go I went running up the stairs to my big wonderful room to grab my shoes. The boys were playing video games up in the lounge. I do believe Colten was sitting in my blue chair... random detail that I remember for no reason xP
I grabbed my shoes, and took off back down the stairs. 

That's when it happened. I slipped on my way down the stairs and my foot got caught in the railings. I landed with a bump at bottom. 
My aunt seen it and I heard her gasp. She yelled from the living room, "Are you ok!?" I guess I told her I was even though my foot was really hurting. That's when I realized I had grabbed only one of my shoes and the other one was actually LaKaysha's. So back up the stairs I went, limping and trying not to cry. Colten glanced away from the video game he was playing long enough to ask me if I was okay. Once again I said I was. 
Then I went in my closet to get my shoe and the pain really started to come. I sat down on the floor, holding my foot and rocking back and forth, telling myself I wouldn't cry and that the pain would pass. It always does.
Kirsten seen me coming back down the stairs after that little episode in my closet. I was still limping and I then realized I had cut my foot in the fall. It was bleeding bad (my step-grandma later said I had cut an artery - good thing I hadn't known about that or I would've been panicking). I asked Kirsten to get me paper towel and a band-aide. I cleaned it up and we went to the store. 

They were playing "Friend of Sinners" by Laura Story in the Trading Post. Another random detail I remember.

I couldn't walk on my own so Kirsten was helping me. Someone else may have been too, but I can't remember who it was - either Emily or LaKaysha. After a limping around in there for a while I realized that the band-aide was doing nothing. My Uncle went to the Deli and asked for some napkins, cleaned up the blood, and then carried me back to the car and told me to just wait in there. I was still fighting back tears at this point. 
My Uncle came back with a bag of Hugs for me <3 also Kirsten bought me an Arizona and some pixie sticks. also some bought me a pie I felt a little better after that. *hugs them*

After getting back from the store my Uncle carried me back in the house and up into my room where he set me on my bed. There were people all around me as they wrapped my foot up tight trying to stop the bleeding. I think the adults knew it was bleeding more than it should've been, but I don't remember them saying anything. I guess they didn't want to scare me. 

We never did roast hotdogs because it started down-pouring outside.

Cousins gathered around in my room and we chatted for a while. I remember the little kids running in every once in a while and trying to jump on the bed, but Tyrel would yell at them that I had a hurt foot. 
Eventually we decided to go downstairs and play Judge and Jury and I'd be the judge since I couldn't do anything. 
Remember how I was pondering who would carry me around if I ever broke my foot? Well, it was Tyrel. That poor boy put up with so much. 

All the adults went out together later that evening and it was just us kids there (everyone who was in the header picture). Kirsten, LaKaysha and Emily all had two good feet. They were up and down the stairs so often Tyrel finally told them to pick and place and stay there because he was tired of carrying me up and down and all around. 

The next morning I woke up to an empty room (curse of being someone who sleeps later than everyone else xP). I could hear everyone downstairs getting breakfast. There was a total of nine extra people staying at our house that week so the noise downstairs was plenty loud *winks*. And there I sat in bed, unable to walk on my own. I sat there for a while pondering if I should just yell "help" and hope someone heard me over their noise or just wait and see if they remembered I was helpless up there and decided to check and see if I was awake. 
It was my Uncle who decided to check on me. He chuckled when he found me sitting up in bed, wondering what to do.

Later that day Marissa and Marita came over and my mom asked them to bring the crutches from years before when my uncle had hurt his foot. They did and that was the end of me limping around or begging someone to carry me. Felt good to get around on my own. Though I did cry about needing them later.

Soon everyone went home to either New Hampshire or the other side of the state and life calmed down. But my foot didn't get any better. I still couldn't walk on it. 
My mom would tell me to walk on it because she figured it was a sprain. Can't really blame her. I never complained about being in pain, so everyone just assumed it wasn't that bad. 
It wasn't till nine or ten days later that I went to my mom and told her I thought it was more than a sprain. She took me in for x-rays that day. And sure enough. It was broken. 

They gave me a boot to wear until I could go get a cast on it. 

I could go on and on about the adventures I had while wearing the boot or cast, but "that's another song". *winks* 
a couple weeks into having the cast - another time when family came to visit

only a couple days after getting the cast off - back in the boot

If you'd like, I could do a part two all about those adventures. But until next time, 
Thanks for coming on this rather lengthy walk down memory lane with me!
This post is slightly different than the other posts I have planned for this series. Just a heads up *winks*

Did you make it through the entire story? Ever break a bone? Looking forward to more in this series?

Thursday, August 20, 2020

top ten || country gospel songs by Randy Travis


As if I don't talk about Randy Travis enough, here's a list of my top ten Gospel songs by him:

|| When Mama Prayed
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When mama prayed, good things happen
When mama prayed, lives were changed
Not much more than five foot tall
But mountains big and small crumbled all away 
When mama prayed

|| Through the Fire
-
So many times I've questioned certain circumstances
Or things I could not understand
Many times in trials, weakness blurs my vision
And my frustrations get so out of hand
It's then I am reminded I've never been forsaken
I've never had to stand the test alone
As I look at all the victories, the Spirit rises up in me 
It's through the fire my weakness is made strong

|| Three Wooden Crosses
-
There are three wooden crosses on the right side of the highway,
Why there's not four of them, Heaven only knows.
I guess it's not what you take when you leave this world behind you, 
It's what you leave behind you when you go.

|| Above All
-
Crucified
Laid behind the stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me 
Above all.

|| The Gift
-
He was the Son God sent to one and all.
Put on this earth to hang there on that cross.
Born to die so we could live. 
He had the birthday, we got the gift.

|| If You Only Knew
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If you only knew what lies awaiting
If you could only see what I can see
If you could only hear the music playing
The angels singing sweet victory
Oh, if you only knew, if you only knew, 
How much he loves you

|| Shout to the Lord
-
My Comfort, my Shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am 
Never cease to worship You

|| The Heart of Worship
-
I'll bring You more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what You have required.
You search much deeper within
through the way things appear. 
You're looking into my heart

|| Everywhere We Go
-
We are soldiers of the cross
We've been found to reach the lost
In city streets, down country roads 
We take You with us everyday, and everywhere we go

|| I'm Ready
-
I'm ready to go that distance
And God only knows when that might be
But oh, what joy waits up yonder 
Once this old world sets me free


What is your favorite gospel song by Randy Travis??

Monday, August 10, 2020

goodbye || video

 

Once upon a time a blue eyed boy spied a hazel eyed girl standing in church. She gave him a wink and they said "I do" at 18 and 17 years old.

They moved to the blue eyed boy's childhood home (since he was 11) on the hill, built a house, and began a family. They raised raspberries, chickens, cows, and babies on that farm they named "Raspberry Ridge"

Through ups and downs they stood side by side until the hazel eyed girl said goodbye at 51.

The blue eyed boy found another love and brought her home to that house on the hill.

10 children. 55 grandchildren. 3 great-grandchildren.

Memories seen in this house are uncountable. Beautiful moments. Sad moments. Mourning. Laughter and tears. If these walls could talk, oh the stories they'd share.

~Felicity Estola, August 2020


This past week my family has had to say goodbye to a wonderful place that has been dear to our hearts all our lives. This may mean nothing to you of you don't know me, but I wanted to do this video for my family. And maybe you'll enjoy it too, every though you may not see it the way we do. 

So. On the day my grandpa and step-grandma moved from that house on Finn Hill, I took some videos, and I put them together with some music. I decided to end the video at us driving away, instead of adding us moving them into their new place.

I know this new place is exciting for them, and I am glad they will be so close, but for the sake of this video I just wanted to focus on the goodbye. 

Soon we'll be able to see the joy in the hello.

Saturday, August 1, 2020

beautiful words, august '20



live in the sunshine, 
swim in the sea,
drink the wild air.
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-