It's fall now.
I love this time of year. It's so refreshing after a long, hot summer.
It's fall, the year has gone by so, so fast. And I haven't been very good at blogging, have I?
I don't know what's up with me. I just never feel like sitting down at the computer. It's like I have nothing to say to the internet.
When 2018 started, I knew it would be filled with change. I mean, right off the bat, my sister got married and moved to New Hampshire.
I had never known what it was like to not have all of your siblings near by, when ever you need them. I knew that 2018 would be completely different than any other year of my life.
And maybe that's why I haven't been blogging as much as I used to.
I'm stilling dealing with all the changes around me.
And there are so, so many.
- Felicity is 3,000 miles away. as you know.
- my cousins, the ones I've grown up with, hung out with, and were my only friends have moved on in life. They have new friends. Two of them are now dating. And even though they're boy cousins, it's still hard. When I care about someone, I care about them a lot. So these cousins were like brothers to me. And suddenly I never see them. Sometimes they will bring their girlfriends to church, but they have their own plans for the day and I only see them for a few minutes. I'm not saying it shouldn't be this way. I'm just saying it's a change. I no longer have a "group". They have one, and I sometimes tag along. But I don't feel like a part of it. Some days the fact that I have no friends that live near me makes me want to crawl back in bed. And other days I'm fine with only chatting with friends on Snapchat and through texting. It's mixed up.
- I have started a new job. This it probably a good thing since I lost my first job, and I wasn't making very much money cleaning once a week with LaKaysha. (I started by just going to work with her, when needed, and I eventually got hired) LaKaysha and I both have started this job - plus keeping the one we already had. So we are now cleaning house for six different poeple. It's an adjustment for sure. And once I start making money, I'll probably be happy about this change.
So maybe these things, piled up, have taken away my desire to blog. idk.
I like to blog about things that make me and others happy. And I haven't been able to think of things like that to blog about.
No. I'm not depressed.
I'm just trying to adjust to my new life.
And I think that's ok.
Most days, I am happy. Please don't get me wrong.
I just felt like it was finally time to tell y'all the facts of my life. Why I've been so quiet on here.
Today I was writing in my diary - something I've also been neglecting this year - I was writing about not blogging. How I'm torn on what to do. I don't want to stop blogging forever. I just feel like I need a break.
And then I had this idea.
What if I stopped blogging for a year?
All of 2019 take a complete break from the blogger world and just live. And if I feel ready at the end of 2019, I'd start blogging again in 2020. I know I still have a few months to decide if I'm going to do this. But I figured - why not run it past my followers? So they can help me decide.
So. Folks.
If I stopped blogging for a year, would you stick by me and still be there when I came back?
